Like my apparent encounter with St. Erlembaldo, my
MRI
experience turns out to fit remarkably well with the view of souls and
the afterlife I’ve come to adopt.
Having the individual
soul be an element of the larger entity we call God would quite
neatly explain how it’s possible for an ordinary person like me to
communicate with the soul of John McCain—a good man, certainly, but not
one who’s been considered for canonization, much less deification.
It
can also explain how McCain’s soul could have known about my distress
without my ever having tried to communicate this to him. Like
God
(and maybe also like a child’s view of Santa Claus), a soul seems to be
present everywhere, transcending space as well as time, and to be
similarly able to “know when we’ve been bad or good”—as well as what
we’re thinking and feeling.
In John McCain’s case, I’m also
struck by how much a person’s unique personality and character seem
to endure in their soul. In the North Vietnamese prison, when
McCain’s captors learned he was the son of an admiral, they immediately
began referring to him as “the prince,” and tried to use him to erode
the other American prisoners’ loyalty to their country, by treating
this member of the “ruling elite” far better than the rest of his
countrymen.
McCain staunchly demanded that he be housed with his compatriots and
treated the same.
His fellow Americans never asked
him to give up his special privileges. (What decent person
would
actually make such a request?) McCain just recognized on his own what
was the right thing to do, and selflessly did it.
Many decades
later, when a guy struggling to get through another difficult form of
“captivity” (this time in an MRI machine) simply thought of him and
his prior heroics, what does John McCain appear to have done but
spring, unbidden, into action the
exact same way he did in the “Hanoi Hilton?”
Could my experience in the MRI machine have been simply the result of
positive role modeling?
If
so, why would I have gotten a sense of somebody having joined me in
that confined space, and the space somehow expanding to accommodate
both of us—with room to spare? As a practical thought, this
proposition is utterly implausible—and I’m not exactly the kind of guy
who goes around ascribing real-world occurrences things to magical
forces.
On top of that, this wasn’t an instance of having
thoughts that didn’t seem to be entirely my own. The only
actual
thought I had about John McCain was that it would be appropriate, under
the circumstances, to try to emulate him as best I could—a thought
which I never considered anything other than a product of my own
brain. After that, there were no words in my head.
The
experience consisted purely of a sense
of presence. And I can’t recall another time
when I’ve felt the presence of somebody or something that wasn’t
actually there.