If the thought that Kath’s emotional burden might be eased by the song in
the
same way mine had been wasn’t truly my own, whose was it?
Who,
exactly, might have been talking to me?
Years later, it occurred
to me that possibly it was her dad. I wasn’t a stranger to
him,
and he liked my music. What father wouldn’t want to ease his
daughter’s pain, if there was a viable way at hand?
But as I
considered this possibility more, I realized the timing would have been
off. Kath’s dad was still alive at the time I wrestled with
whether or not to sing the song to her.
I suppose it’s possible that since he was near
death, he may have entered into a transitional state in which lots of
people talk about seeing their deceased loved ones. But
there’s
another potential explanation that seems a lot simpler to me:
The lyrics of the song I had sung were directly addressed to God
himself. Somebody was crying out to him, so he answered.
I
have to admit, I find this possibility a bit overwhelming.
Had
the great and immortal ultimate power of the cosmos actually taken the
time to speak words of comfort and healing to insignificant little me?
I
know there are lots of people who believe they’ve had this
experience—if not with God himself, then with his son.
They’ve
prayed, and they’ve found their prayers answered—simple as
that.
But personally, I favor an explanation that’s a bit less awesome in its
scale.
When I sang a song asking God to hear me, any number of
souls—bits of the larger God entity, yet capable of functioning
independently—were out there and able to respond. All it
would
have taken is for one of them to provide the essence of what I was
asking for, in the form of healing guidance.
I find the
possibility that a network of beings whom I had never met was out there,
listening to me and happy to help, no less miraculous or deeply
touching than the topmost Almighty Being arriving in a fanfare of
celestial trumpets.