Immediately after I had this thought, I had the
feeling that
somehow, somebody had gotten inside the MRI machine with me—and that the space
had strangely expanded, to at least the size of a two-man tent, and
possibly much larger.
An image flashed into my mind of an illustrated Classic Comics version
of The Count of Monte
Cristo
that I had read when I was a kid. After an excruciatingly
difficult effort to tunnel his way out a fortress in which he has been
unjustly confined, the protagonist finally breaks through a prison wall
to find not the outside world, but just an older man’s
cell.
In
the course of their association, though, the older man frees him in a
different and deeper way, by teaching him all kinds of things about the
outside world that the protagonist would never have learned in the
normal course of his life.
I felt very much the same way
for the remainder of the MRI. Although I never got the sense
that
anybody was directly teaching me things like fencing or world history,
just by being in the presence of my rescuer, I felt much more
free. And as the desperate urge to escape subsided, my
breathing
fell naturally into a pattern where the gag reaction subsided, without
my needing to constantly think about how to breathe to prevent it.